I am SORRY, I Know I am BAD!!

I look at you and smile, because I havent seen you in a while. The distance is tearing us apart. But I can hold the memories in heart. I hate being this far away because I feel like I cant express the things I need to say. So no matter what I m sticking with you, whether you like it or not I will always be here, to wipe away every single tear. Whenever you need me, you know where I will be. You really dont know what you mean to me, but hopefully this explanation will make you see eventhough I really dont want you to know anything. I could never stay mad at you. You ve taught me a lot of lessons, and I m thankful for all of your blessings. It's just that I try to be happy, but the more I try the more you hate me. Its like the harder I work, the more you take, the more I heal, the more you break. The happier I get, the more miserable you are. Sometimes I get so close but feel so far. All I m asking is please dont hurt me. I m hurting where only I can see. I wish I could tell you all the things I want to say. I know some things I did to you were cruel. Believe me when I say I was a fool. So please just give me another try to make up our friendship! *its totally broken english!!!